June

June 7 Appointment - With all that I've been through I still gained another 2 lbs, BP ok. Your heartrate is good.

June 11 Appointment - Lost 3 lbs, BP ok. I can discontinue Pre-Term Labor meds. I'm glad about that. The side-effects are awful. I can't think straight. I feel like I'm in a zone.

June 21 - I am 37 Weeks. Went for a BPP - We checked out ok on the monitors, then went for the ultrasound. My cervix is 100% thinned. You have not turned into the head-down position. You're still laying sideways and the umbilical cord is under you.
Our Drs consulted with the Perinatologist about a C-section today, but the Peri said to wait because we still had 3 weeks to go. So, they sent me home.

I am still exhausted. I am still mentally and emotionally drained. Oh how I wish I was thinking straight and insisted on a C-section NOW. Why was I so naive as to put my trust in the Peri to think that he knew what was best for us.

I love you, my little one. I am so sorry!

June 22 - Aunt Donna is painting the nursery today. All excited for your soon arrival.
Late in the morning I lost the mucous plug. I called L&D. The nurse said she would call the Dr and call me back. Dr said to go to hospital to be monitored.
1cm dilated, contractions are sporatic. Again, they sent me home.

June 23 Appointment - BP slightly high, still 1 cm dilated.


I love you, my little one.